Ode To My Stupidity

stupid girl with eyes of blue
or are they grey or green ...
whatever the freak they look like to you
here i am again

i ignore the things i need to face
that's just how i deal
can't delete the past and can't erase
the stupid things i feel

my list of things to do; it grows
i'm overwhelmed in life
i'm in too deep and yes i know
i cause it every time

a paper that i should have written
a couple days ago
a song i should have memorized
will affect how my music lesson will go

a man i should have never touched
i did; 8 months ago
i still can't get over it
the healing comes too slow

so i just try to move along
but i do not know how
a problem comes; i write a song
the problem stays around

my friends--they care; i know they do
but i won't let them see
what's going on or what is wrong
with this stupid girl; that's me

read me like a book; you may
but ask no questions please
this is just a stupid poem
of my stupidity